| Location | Watchfield |
| Age | 18 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 14/07/1989 |
| Date of Death | 05/09/2007 |
| Visitors | 8,346 since 26/07/2008 |
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He was the son that i dreamed off, a gift from God and i was proud to be his father, a boy that was destined for greatness and he did achieve that.
He was great at football and especially golf,he loved his brothers and sisters and he was loved by all.
Kristian became 18 and was looking forward to his future in the army,he went out to work then was with his mates talking about playing football the next day, he had a joke and laugh with his sister and then he decided life was not for him.
That day will be in my head forever, the message on the phone to ring urgently,i rang and the words came out that Kristian had died,no explanation just that,i got back to england and was told he had hung himself,iwent to the hospital and there was my son laying there still quite and with no expression on his face,he was cold but iknew his heart was still warm, his love was still alive and it would be spread across the world by allhis friends.
No one can believe he did what he did, he was a joy a laugh with all his friends so why, we will never know until we meet in heaven.
The inquest was held and those fatefull words rang in everyones ears he had decided to end his life.
I was devestated that my son could do this, but life has to go on in the memory of my son and that is why i have re done this site to remember the son that never quite acheived his ambition in life but he has now gone to our dear Lord and is helping him get everything ready for all of us when we all go to meet our children again.
God Bless You Kristian i Love you with all my heart and forever in my dreams you will be Love Dad xxxx
Kristian took his own life on the 5th September 2007 he was 18.
Too young to die.
Kristian i never had you long enough andi had to let you go,but within my soul you will stay forever.
Love Dad
Bless your heart, my ex bf died the exact same way and the words of that day haunt me forever. You can look after each other. Rip sweet xxxx
so hard to say goodbye
SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE
IT HURTS SO MUCH TO KNOW
WE'LL NEVER SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN
WE'LL NEVER GIVE YOU HUGS
WE'LL NEVER TOUCH YOUR SKIN
WE'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY
IT WAS SO HARD FOR YOU TO TRY
WE'LL NEVER HEAR YOUR VOICE
OR GET TO SAY GOODBYE
IT'S SO HARD JUST TO BEGIN
TO UNDERSTAND YOUR CHOICE
OH GOD WHAT I WOULD GIVE
TO HAVE ANOTHER CHANCE
LIFE'S SO HARD WITHOUT YOU
WE DIDNT HAVE A CLUE
ABOUT ALL THE PAIN THAT YOU WERE IN
SO UNHAPPY AND SO BLUE
GROWING UP IS ALWAYS HARD
FOR SOME, HARDER THAN OTHERS
BUT LIFE WILL BE EVEN HARDER NOW
FOR YOUR SISTERS AND YOUR BROTHERS
WE HAVE TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU
GO ON WITH EVERY DAY
AND KEEP YOUR MEMORY ALIVE WITH US
SO PAINFUL IN EVERY WAY
IT'S SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE
I DONT WANT TO EVEN TRY
I'M JEALOUS OF ALL THE ANGELS
CAUSE YOU'RE SITTING BY THEIR SIDE
WE'LL SEE YOU AGAIN IN HEAVEN
IT WON'T SEEM SOON ENOUGH
OH BABY GIRL WHY'D YOU LEAVE US
LIFE WITHOUT YOU IS JUST TOO TOUGH
to you
Carry my heart with a gentle touch
for the pain is sharp and hurts so much
A son has left and went away
to the precious heavens his soul shall stay
Life continues to deal this hand
of senseless cards I don't understand
If I could have seen the future ahead
I would've begged God to take me instead
But life don't allow us that choice
of turning back time to hear my voice
Memories fade as new ones appear
of my loving son I hold so dear
Everyday pain renews its face up high
knowing I never got to say good`bye
My heart is pure and will remain that way
so I can be with my son again one day
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SON XXX
ღ ღ ღ ღ All My Love Beautiful Angel ღ ღ ღ ღ
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*ღ.......ღ* *ღHeavenly *ღ.......ღ* *ღ shona sengupta. ..ღ*
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How will heaven be?
As far as I can see
It will have huge bells
And will be situated on clouds
It will have many golden wells
That will so often swell
Rain will be abundant
And the sun will shine all day long
Angels will play on the harp
The sweetest summer song
Music that will touch the heart
While those beneath will shed drops of sorrow
Little will they know what will happen on the morrow
But to them up above
As plain and clear it will be
As far as far as I can see
Yes there will be misty alleys
And lush green meadows
Fresh with the fragrant smell of spring
Winter will never be bitter
Summer never so hot
Autumn never so bare
And resources never so scarce
Food for all will be relished by all.
Grateful we’ll be as grateful can be
Mountains high and strong and brown
Surrounding that hidden land,
Beautiful and vast seas I see
There colour as blue as sapphire can be
And the white waves lashing upon the shore
Sitting on the flattened grey rocks
Who would not call it absolutely heavenly?
However it might actually be,
But can we still not see
There will lie behind this seen
A relieving feeling of bliss
For where not have we been
But is this not by all believed
That after one’s decease
This is the land of eternal peace
Where we all ultimately reach?
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Together
I always listen to the tape when i tried to contact youand i listen to what was said,that i have to finish off what i started before i can come and meet you,i searched and looked hard to find what it was and now i know.
I looked in the wrong places and now i looked within my heart and found what i had to find.
My forgiveness to everyone that hurt us,my love to everyone even if they are rich or poor.
My thoughts to others before myself.
And most of all be gracious to my very end.
I feel that was the question i received and the answer i have given.
Now i can say my goodbyes.
Love you Kristian and forever will.
Dad xxx One day together again in my arms xxx
Without you
Easter comes once again,and i have a egg with your name on it.
I keep it close to me as i know you will come and get it and thank me.
I always lay down upon my bed and thoughts of you are always in my head.
I took yoour sister and brother to play golf the other day,but i watched them like i used to you.
Cuddle them every night,and every day look after them.
My life goes on but deep inside a piece of me is missing,
Maybe one day we will all be back together,
as one happy family.
Love you son,love you so much xxxxx
xxxxx kisses from Nicolle,Simone and Thierry.
Forever in my heart xxxxxxxx Dad
*~Kristian~*
My precious first born son, i love and miss you so very much words can never describe, but i have Nicolle, Simone and Thierry to keep me going and i have to keep going for them. I will never understand why you had to leave us, we all miss you so very much, we talk about you each and every day, we love you. xxxxx
Please let your dad know that however much he misses you he still has the other three, they still need a "Dad" They would love to see him more!
xx
Love and Miss You my Precious Son,
Mum xxxxx
A gift
A gift from God a new born son,a gift so precious to love and to hold,a gift that was forever,but why did he take him back,what did i do wrong,everyday i sit and cry maybe not on the outside but inside,why did he have to die,a boy that never grew old,my Peter Pan, a legend before he got too old,so why dear Lord am i sat here so sad,waiting for my time to come aand i can go,to meet my son once again,please just give me one wish,my wish is to be with my son,please just one wish.
Love you Kristian xxx
You bowled me over from the day you were born,till the day i lost you but still every day that goes by i think of the times i had to say goodbye,i now want to greet you in heaven,and be with you once again before i get too old.
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